Those times

Mon, Jul. 27th, 2020 09:51 pm
scarlettina: (Trouble get behind me)
Sometimes, you make a decision for all the right reasons, and even though you believe you were being smart, it still hurts, it's still sad, and you still feel bad about it. I made a decision that almost everyone I consulted with supported. It seemed like the smart thing to do. But every decision has consequences and the consequences I'm living with right now just . . . well, they suck. I knew they would come and I can't change my decision because it involves other people whom I can not and do not wish to control. But the decision makes me sad, among other feelings, and some nights it's harder to take than others. Tonight, it's really hard.

Which direction?

Mon, Jul. 17th, 2017 12:58 pm
scarlettina: (Madness)
Sometimes I don't know whether I'm coming or going. The fact that gmail occasionally seems wonky, delivering email a day late, doesn't help. I don't know what to think sometimes. On the other hand, I recently had this exchange with my therapist:

Me: I need to stop thinking and just start doing.
Therapist: You need to stop doing and just start being.

Oh, right. It's all about being. This mindfulness stuff is hard.

"Stand in the place where you live
Now face north
Think about direction
Wonder why you haven't before . . . "

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