More on tap

Yesterday was the last day of the current session The teacher had us doing some pretty complicated work at speed. I was having real trouble with it. I had planned to move on to level 2 at the end of this session, but this class in particular just felt like defeat to me. I couldn't get the sequence down consistently, and it seemed like every time the teacher's eyes were on me, I just failed. I cramped up, or my steps were too short, or I just got confused. It may have been exhaustion--I was tired after a very full four days--or it may have been genuine lack of developed ability, but it was clear I was missing something.

At the end of class, I went up to Josh (the teacher) and said to him, "Honest assessment: am I ready to move on to level 2?" He told me that I had some things down cold, but I had more work to do--maybe another round at level 1 wouldn't be a bad idea. So I'm staying in level one. I'll be bored for some of it, but it will give me time to hone things. And I need to practice more.

I admit frustration. At the same time, I'm pretty sure I'd be a lot more frustrated if I moved to level 2 and couldn't do any of it. I want to go on. I need to stay where I am and nail what I'm doing first.

Big :: sigh ::