Me too, me too! Compared to the people I know and admire, I know nothing, can do nothing, and be never more than passable at a given skill, if that. In the first half of my life, when I might have been able to get lessons and do something about the things I have some amount of talent in, I was unable to make any of those things happen. The one exception to this was college, where my talent for writing and analysis got honed to some degree. Now I'm single and starting to make up for lost time a bit, but I know that being a specialist is largely beyond me now; maybe someday when the kiddos are grown, but not at this point. But then I'd have to decide "specialist in what?" and I'm not sure I can make that decision. :)